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from fatshion to fashion, or something like that

I’ve looked at clothes from both sides now, 
From fat and thick, to (semi) fit, and still somehow
It’s 70’s fashion, I recall
I still (mostly) don’t know, fashion at all.

Yes, I just made up my own lyrics to Joni Mitchell’s “Both Sides Now”. Don’t judge me. Moving right on…

When I was fat, I didn’t really have a fashion voice. My fatshion was anything that fit, didn’t show my stomach and pretty much stuck to black. I admire this new wave of fashion where Ashley Graham is rocking out as a size 16 and fatkinis are being sold. I love all the beautiful woman not caring what size they are but rocking the crop top and loving their bodies. I wish that could have been me. Buying clothes has always been one of the hardest things for me. When my best friend in junior high was a gorgeous girl with blonde hair, blue eyes, with perfect abs who rocked a size 00. I barely needed a bra and was already a size 13. Needless to say shopping wasn’t fun. Also I grew up in the last 90’s where fashion went from jnco jeans to the huge Abercrombie boom. So did I really have a chance?

I also grew up stealing my brothers basketball jerseys and wrestling shirts and had no idea about anything clothes related. It really wasn’t until I met my friend Ashley that I started asserting my opinions and likes about who I was and how I dressed. Shes another gorgeous blonde, tiny and curvy and just about one of the nicest people you’ll ever meet.  So shopping with her became fun. I was a size 18 but she always encouraged to wear cute things and pick what I like and made me feel like no one would laugh at me. That’s a huge gift. Love you girl! So shopping with her I started to realize I loved the boho, hippie look. I loved flowy tops, bracelets, anything with leggings, and cute boots. 
I started trading in my khakis and polos for embroidered tops, long necklaces and soft leather over the knee boots. I didn’t just wear preppy clothes though. Sometimes I hid behind the revealing outfits, showing my cleavage off and wearing tight things to accentuate my breasts so I could pretend people didn’t notice the fat girl behind them. I had convinced myself that if I just was sexy or showing off my butt in a tight dress they would only notice that. Besides any attention is good attention right? Definitely not. I’ve always been lucky I have had a huge personality to go along with my ass (some say I can be an ass…makes sense) so I didn’t always rely on a cheap look to get a second look. 
Actually I have been fairly lucky in love and bfs and never dated a chubby chaser. Plus JoeyWaffles met me at my heaviest and has loved and supported me every step of my health journey so that’s been amazing. So having an amazingly sexy, confident, smart, funny, and all around amazing bf has given me a huge confidence boost. When I started dating JoeyWaffles I naturally just started being modest which was kind of a big deal for me. But I finally understand that I didn’t want to flaunt my goods because I wanted them to just be for him. That doesn’t mean I stopped trying to look good but it meant I got to look good for me. He loves me no matter what I wear and can’t tell the difference between my Hanes string bikinis or my Victoria’s Secret Very Sexy panties. Really that just means I get to save money on lingerie and have more to spend on shoes and clothes and purses!
As I went shopping this weekend at Forever 21, inspired by one of my favorite IG accounts @thesweattybetty who bought some shorts there, I found a ton of great things. I bought a romper I am slightly obsessed with and cannot wait to wear this summer. It has elephants! Adorable elephants! I also grabbed a maxi dress, 3 cute tops, and a long necklace. I was really hesitant about being a Coachella wannabe but when I tried on the flowered headbands I totally fell in love. So I ended up with two. As Carolyn G knows, I have been wanting a floppy brown hat and finally found the perfect one!! My friend Laura was my virtual shopping buddy and I texted her pics of what I was trying on for a second opinion and she was amazing! I ended up getting everything for $105. That was good for my self, wealth, and definitely mental health!
Forever 21 is a pretty overwhelming store but knowing who I am and what I like helps me navigate it’s chaos. Getting to really love clothes and express myself is something I couldn’t do a few years ago. Losing the weight has made me find out who I am and how I want to express myself. I love a good pair of skinny jeans, a cute top, layered maybe with something flowery or colorful, and a great pair of boots. Cowboy or over the knee have been my favorites but sometimes you can’t go wrong with a good pair of riding boots. I love sundresses, cute sandals, anything lace and cream colored, stacked bracelets, and long necklaces, Basically I want to be 70’s Stevie Nicks. 
So what has inspired you? What’s your fashion? Did you ever have to find your fashion voice and were you excited when you did?
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Monday Must Have-5 weekends til Christmas!

Since it’s only 5 weekends away, I thought it would be fun to post my Christmas Wish List. My Dad still asks my brother and I for them so I have to start thinking about what I want. My brothers hasn’t changed much from when we were kids, the newest video game system and this year’s was no different, the Playstation 4. My list is definitely more practical than when I was little but I also buy myself the fun stuff now instead of relying on my parents. So here we go!

Monday Must Have’s Christmas Edition

North Face Winter Jacket-BlackWhen I was heaver I had the typical North Face that everyone has but I had to buy it in a Men’s XL which was pretty mortifying even though no one could tell. I always felt bad knowing that, so when I lost the weight and the jacket was huge on me, it was a huge victory. I’ve had a nice coat for the last two years but it’s time for a change. Something classy, something warm and functional with the Polar Vortex that’s sure to happen again. This coat looks great on everyone and I am totally copying my friend Carly, who has this and looks amazing in it.
Benefit Cosmetics Gift Card or productsBesides the advent calendar I’ve previously mentioned, I pretty much want anything else that’s from Benefit. I love their products: Big Easy, Hello Flawless, Gimme Brow, Brow Zings, They’re Real, and on and on and on. Benefit is my favorite make up brand and I am almost out a lot of my products so it’s gonna be a great time to fill up. The products last a long time without getting gross so it’s a great for the wallet as well!
Erin Condren Life Planner with this photoI’ve ordered a planner before and I love it. It’s fun to use and I love that you can make it personal. Picking a photo from my instagram, I get to enjoy keeping track of all my shit with stickers and color coded pens. I love being organized and this is a great and useful way to keep myself together. A little pricey but if you still like hand writing things and not using your phone or a tablet, this is a great way to go. 
Hunter Boot Welly SocksFirst off, if you don’t own Hunters and you live anywhere with snow or heavy rains, stop reading and run to Nordstrom’s and grab a pair. They are AMAZING. Your feet will absolutely not get dry but I will warn, even with Wellies, your toes can get cold. I has a glossy black pair and grey cable knit socks and want a few more for outfit choices. If you want to wear hunters with leggings to work, these really class them up and are comfy. Long term for $140, these are a great investment.
This or this funny notepad from PapyrusAnother great way to stay organized and they’re pretty funny. These are going to be great for work and they make me laugh out loud.
Lifefactory 16 oz Classic Cap bottle (pink)Because I’m trying to stay away from bottled water and the big bad BPA’s and because it’s super cute. It’s never bad to stay hydrated and be fashionable at the same time.

Fleece Lined Leggings from WalgreensLast year I wanted a pair of fleece lined leggings but wasn’t sure what direction to go or where to start. One day I was in line at Walgreen’s and saw 2 pairs for $10 and took a chance. I have never looked back. This is a STEAL. These pants are one sized fit all, comfy, the perfect thickness, and they look great. They havent’ ripped or gotten nubby ad they keep my really really insulated and warm. Grab a pair!

This weekend I had the new Starbucks cranberry bliss bar and it was so delicious. JoeyWaffles and I had dinner at Sushi Station, I did some laundry and visited a psychic. I wore adorable leg warmers and meal prepped for the week. Most importantly I got to catch up with a dear friend Kristen. I had a wonderful time seeing her, meeting Bacci her adorable Chi mix and learning about Essential Oils. It was a great party and I looked forward to seeing more of her! I also got to play a lot of Tetris Attack with JoeyWaffles and hang out with the pups and relax. All I need now is a fireplace
What are you asking for this Christmas? Hannukah? Anything special you really want? Or are you excited to buy gifts and enjoy the gift of giving?

Keepin Up with Halloween

Halloween was pretty fantastic. 
wig: $24.99
fake eyelashes: $3.99
baby doll: borrowed
everything else already owned
total: $30 
I was Kim Kardashian, a guy at work was Kanye and we borrowed baby North. I was pretty surprised how well it turned out and how I looked as a blonde. My work had a great party during the day and there were adorable trick or treaters at night. This was my first year having trick or treaters in a long time and I loved it. It was great telling them to take as much candy as they wanted, since the weather was bad and we had a ton of candy.  I gave out candy and then went out with a friend, grabbed a steak to cook and had dinner with the boo. After amazing lime marinated steak with garlic, grilled onions, and avacado, we hung out and went to sleep. While I don’t think I’m going honey blonde anytime, I am tempted to keep the false eyelashes once in a while. 
What did you dress up as for Halloween?